Love you anyway

It’s so incredibly hard to love you
But I love you anyway

And every time I try too hard not to love you;

I love you anyway

Have you ever been trying to "give out loads" to a child for some recurring misdemeanor only to find yourself being shmoozed?

Boo has an extremely annoying habit of chewing keys off his laptop, and it happened 3 times in one day last week. I was apoplectic as there are only so many times you can ring Dell-hi to go through the whole "my enter key is sticking" process and get them to send out a new keyboard.
And the third key he damaged was on Bratty's laptop; after the 3 of us had gone for our walk while an Angel watched the Boo.

So was pretty durned angry. I am not a smacker. But I do give out quite a telling off when Boo has done the wrong thing.
I had brought him up to his room for a "Time Out" and removed privileges like his mini- DVD.

You see, Everything in our house gets broken! It can be extremely frustrating and expensive too.

I was especially upset as I had trusted him with the return of the laptop after a similar act of vandalism early in the week.

So there I am ranting away and he just looks up at me from his little nest of toys and quilts and says:

"Come on, give us a nap-cuddle"

And when I sat down on the bed with my sternest expression to tell him why he had to stay there and think about not breaking things, he reaches out and tries to force my mouth into a smile with his little fingers. "Mummy's Very Happy" he says, willing it to be true.

It was very very hard not to relent at that point. And yeah, while I had to leave the room for a smile mixed with a few tears of frustration, when I went back in I knew that I loved him anyway.

You see, this just proves the fallacy that kids with autism do not understand emotions. Not only does Boo understand them, he is affected by them enough to want to try and change them.

And he knows how!

I fixed the keyboard this time, and then covered it with sticky contact paper to try and remove the temptation. It has been moved to the kitchen table again, and quickly goes back into the bag and into the cupboard if Boo strays on to any unsuitable movie clip sites.

At which point I have to sit with him and entertain him a bit as I may be able to withdraw a few privileges, I could never withdraw my love.

He just won't let me.

xx

Thanks to Super Kawaii Mama for the lesson in embedding youtube! xx